Days are so long. Every minute is like a raindrop, slowly sliding on the leaf.
I was dreaming of you. As a little girl. You came from the darkness as a quiet silhouette watching over me. Not saying much. You were just standing there with your sharp dark eyes and gentle, hardly visible smile. The softness you radiant on me paralized me forever. In my life I've felt safe only with you.
I've been looking for this presence in this other world ever since. There were years I thought I must be crazy. But I've been faithful. I've never abandoned you. I've kept this silhouette deep down, hidden in my body where nobody could touch it or reach for it.
How do I live like this? I live on faith. No matter what happened to me ... I was always holding on the purity I was given by the universe. I was strong because of you. Knowing you're watching, feeling my every thought. I trust in our connection beyond the known. You do things with the same soul as I do. You see the world through the inner eye as I do.
And even when my skin dries and bones hardly hold the meat … I'll be still keeping you inside until my mind leaves this corpse for the last time.
Years are so long. I live on the life you breathe in me while I sleep.
I've been looking for you. But I will never find you. Unless you decide to wake me up and not leave.
